Emotions
Im seriously soo emotional right now.. My pain.. All of it.. It just came pouring out just now.. I basicly had an emotional breakdown and awesome waterworks. I guess, it was good. It felt great. All those hidden emotions i had buried and put behind me, just came rushing out. I dont know how or why but they all just, came out. Just like that. I probably spent like what? A good 30 minutes crying my eyes and lungs out like a baby. Yes, plus the whole screaming part. Remembering every single memory we had. The problem is, they were all good and fun. Which makes the whole letting go part a real bitch. I loved you so, much. You will never know how much pain you caused me. How much i love you. I myself, dont know how or why.You were just so, perfect to me. Until you left.
‘Do not pray for an easier life, but, pray to be a stronger person to get through life.’
At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap. When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice. When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back. When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row. When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house. When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste. When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter. When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children. And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART. If you love your dad, reblog.
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For a dog, you do not need big cars, big homes or designer clothes. Status symbols mean nothing to him. A stick is already great. A dog does not care if you’re rich or poor, smart or dumb. A dog judges others not by their color, creed or class but by who they are inside. Give your heart to him, and he will give his. It’s really very simple, but even so, we humans, as wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really matters or not. How many people can you say that? How many people make you feel unique, pure and special? How many people make you feel special?
Crying. )’:
My life was so perfect you know? Until you left that is. All i needed was you Denice. Where’d you go? Why’d you go? I need you soo badly right now girl.
I cried in anger, as i screamed and shouted. All my pain in that time just exploded out. some of it. It felt good. Very good.
Because of everything. My broken heart, my tendencies to snap. I vent my anger on my family. I just got slapped by my mother for screaming at her. All because of a stupid letter. I, just, snapped. All that anger, pain, loneliness. Just turned into a scream fest.
17 year old Pinoy Livin in Sunny little Singapore. Born 16 January. Do the math to know my birth year. Moved from the Philippines by the age of 2. Raised and studied in Singapore. Not gonna say my real name cause its easy to Google. Im the only ******* in the whole world with this spelling :) Avid inline skater. Currently a slalom slider in the making.
